The Magic in our stars!!!!

Well the last time I had started writing, it was a because of a person. Finally as I am resuming it now I guess after two years, it’s because of a person. I will be using the word person for the one I want to talk about in this post. It really amazes me when I look at the impact the person who made me start writing again, has on me and my life. The person is seriously one of the most simple-minded person. I think this person has changed three magical words in my life from I love you to “M Gud Le :-)”. The smiley at the end really tells one thing about her. She’s got to have the patience of a rock to type it that way compared to an emoticon that takes just one push of a key. You know sometimes there are these casual moments and later in your life when you think about them, they really were the “Dear Diary Moments”.

Well our first time conversation was funny and interesting at the same time. The words I spoke were “Where is the something Class?” and the answer was simple from the person as well. We never talked thereafter. One day I was just entering one of our mutual friend’s room. My mutual friend and that person were talking to each other on phone, when suddenly my mutual friend said “That person says hi to you”. I was like “is the person nuts?” Why in hell would anyone care about me being in that room. That was one instance I felt there’s something special about this person as this was the first time and incident like this ever happened in my life. It so happens that sometimes you’re in the moment, a really special one and you say something without understanding its consequences. It was a promise i made. Probably one of the biggest in my life . But surprisingly those were one of the best words I ever spoke. I am damn sure the person remembers them. I've never been so happy about  using the power of speech.

Our first hangout was through our mutual friends. We had been to a lake and I was just thinking about how we are together and someday we’ll just drift off like autumn leaves that are blown away by wind. Everyone said why do you get so serious?. But this person said go on I am listening. I still remember that the first piece of writing I ever wrote was for this person. But what impressed me more than that is what it meant to the person. The person still has it well preserved. This person is the only one who knows what I have dreamt about my marriage.  

Well, it so that happened that one day I really had this bad dream in which I saw this person getting harmed. Well people usually let it go. But I always was, still am and will always be an emotional fool. So we went to church and sat there just praying for the person. Before this incident I truly never believed in prayers. I believe that is what keeps me human. The most incredible thing came from this person when the person told me that we both dreamt about making preparations together for my elder sister’s marriage. By far this person happens to be the only one who told me that and I guess may be the only one ever. Yes I am meticulous and yeah I don’t really believe in doing something big but really starting with sweet things.

Being a superhero fan I remember these lines and I quote "He's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him. Because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark Knight." The person is like this to me. I never thought we would be best friends. The person doesn't talk to me all the time or daily. I don't even get time to spend with the person. But I know the person is there with me, all the tine.  We are each other's dark Knights. We watch each other's backs. This person truly taught me that togetherness was not messaging each other daily. Or calling each other frequently. I always wondered how literature comes to me. I guess it just does. Well here is something I wrote for the person "You came as a hope and became my faith". The person truly stands for this, Truly,together there is nothing that we cannot achieve. Yes I have an indestructible horcrux(for those die hard harry potter fans) of mine in the person and the person's in me. We live really far from each other and yet you never seemed closer to me. You are one of the very few people who inspires me.

Being with this person seems morning and the person's absence feels like night. Times will always try to drift us apart. But, you will always be close to my heart. Love you friendoo.

P.S: Just hold my hand and we could walk through the jungle of darkness with togetherness as the ray of light.

A LESSON FINALLY LEARNT!

Sometimes very small incidents change our life by a huge extent. Well it was just yesterday and i was still in my “haven’t got a single call from a company” mode. It was evening and i had been to the nearby lake just to feel better. Luckily i had a camera and was taking some snaps of birds there. I had finished it and suddenly i heard someone saying hi. I turned around to find out that it was my lecturer who taught me CAD in the first year of my engineering. He casually asked me how are you doing? I told him that many of my friends are placed in multiple companies and i haven’t attended a single interview yet! He said you’re spending great quality time . I saw you taking snaps and how involved you were in it! You know something its not easy . Youth today loose their hopes over pretty small things even when they have so many opportunities. I’m glad you were enjoying your time.

Placement , something that makes a student believe himself and also standardizes his ability. As depressed i was of not having heard from a single company i stopped living life. Life just went on the way  it could probably go. I started becoming isolated and far from everyone. No new clothes , no buying anything new. Finally i started doubting myself and my  abilities. The hurricane of not being placed hit me and hit me real hard! I was shredded into pieces. I  even stopped talking . All my friends wondered what’s with me because i was always a blabbermouth. Well life seemed to have driven me into oblivion.

Coming back to the evening at the lake, i wondered what he told me about and it lead to the inception of a  series of thoughts in my mind!  I know placement or even attending recruitment programmes builds a lot of confidence in you. But it doesn’t mean that you cannot succeed if you you’re not placed! I’m not saying that we all can be Narayan Murthy , but becoming ourselves is the greatest thing that could happen for us . The greatest person we can ever become is ourselves. That’s when i felt that without drawing and writing my life would’ve been so pale. There’s so much to life than just success or failure. All we have to remember is to keep trying. Life is to enjoy! Doing what you love the most. So whenever you face failure, draw someone’s portrait! Help someone find their moment of success! Write something that comes to your mind! Feel the chilled breeze in the evenings breath it in and feel the love in it sent by someone somewhere in this world. When it rains get wet in rain, get your clothes dirty! Hangout with your loved ones! You’ve got just one life ! Live it like never before. Don’t spoil it because of someone or something. Life is a gift to be enjoyed not to be sad upon. Nothing heals wounds the way  time does. Just keep yourself interested in something and you’ll transcend through any phase of your life! Celebrate success and failure equally!

We all come across such people in our lives who although, are not close to us impact our lives to a great extent! Help us realize what we are. All we have to do keep our eyes wide open to everything that we come across in our lives and we’ll surely have our share of sparkling moments of our lives! Cheers to life! Cheers to the greatest gift of God!

Technology - The Dirty Picture!

Well  what’s gonna follow this line is something serious that we have been too negligent to notice or say too self centered to be bothered about .

In today’s world we say technology is the crown of science and I don’t deny it but has technology really been able to improve lives ? Yes it has, but in gaining something new we’ve not been keen enough to track what it has taken away from us. Let me start with these social networking websites. I completely agree that social media has increased our social quotient but these are shallow waters. Let me take you the darker depths of it. Say I have a girlfriend and I say that I love her, she may read the word love but can she read how many feelings are hidden behind that single word? Can we quantify feelings ? the truth being we do it and why just because everyone does it. Is it possible for me tell my girlfriend how much I love her just through this texting? Love is just supposed be read in the eyes. Say my girlfriend is very beautiful can I even notice her beauty? Is it possible to console a person emotionally on these sites with images etc? And the most ridiculous flaw I found in social networking websites is if you update your status saying you’re sad, people like it!!!! Isn’t it the height of stupidity? But we are the “move on” generation no matter what happens we move on. Is this the society we wanna leave for our future inhabitants of this earth?

We call ourselves the so called “engineers” with great pride yet we design technologies that harm birds and various other living organisms and the worst of it we know all this but we still do it! We create such blunder mistakes and then find some irregularities in government and we protest! We accept things very easily without even analyzing them. We demand equality when we ourselves don’t practice it when we claim ourselves as the superior beings and we encroach everything from the rightful inheritors of the earth and still ironically wear t shirts saying “Being Human”. Our standard of life is increasing but, the quality of our life is falling and yet we say we’re progressing. Man being known for his intelligence isn’t able to conceive this simple idea and rectify it. I agree we have to earn our daily bread but its better to be hungry than to  snatch something from others, fill your stomach with it and behave like its completely right.Morals are falling apart. Isn't it the sign of a tornado that is ripping our society apart ! Cellphones result in insomnia and various other sleep related problems!

Coming to the development of a child, in this era where children spend most of their time in digital world which takes them equally far from the real social world. Development of a child is always incomplete without socialization but that is absolutely missing these days! We are drenched in Technology for most of the things in our life. Can you capture the happiest moments of your life in some pics? Superficially yes,but can an image show a heart blooming like a flower filled with ecstasy? Man has just started an age where there is quantification of everything .why do we find people updating sad statuses? Its just because they dont have anyone to hold their hand and tell them " Don't worry no matter what comes in your way, we'll face it together". 

Why do we depend on technology where it isn’t needed? Instead of saying hi to my friend on social networks who lives in my neighborhood why can’t I go to him directly and spend some quality time with him? I am not someone who opposes technology! Man has made technology not the vice versa .Technology is a boon to humans if its used in the way it is supposed to be! But humanity is just not matured enough to handle such immense power.All i wish is that we don’t let it become a curse!technology isn't bad but the way man uses it gives an ugly picture of it! Change isn't needed in technology but in our minds and hearts! Its in our hands now as the present of our nation to decide what’s right and what’s wrong. Its time to redefine progress and restore the imbalance!WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY!SPIRIT!

LOVE - REDEFINED!

LOVE – we all are hit by this storm one or the other day. Even I had my share of love that I was gifted from GOD!

She joined my school in eighth standard. She was kind of an introvert from the first day that I noticed her. Although I did notice her but had never imagined that she would become so special  one day. I hardly used to talk to her and hardly paid any attention to her. She was just one among my classmates for me. Slowly and steadily we caught each others eyes staring at us and I used to hate it when any girl stares at me. We eventually became good friends over the period of time.  Finally we stepped into 10^th standard and she was the most easily accessible person to me. School days ended and we both separated and I was all cool with it as if nothing’s going to change. But slowly I did feel her absence. Also, my best friend hated her. He never liked her and told me to be away from her.  

Then came PUC 1^st year and also with it came the pressure to improve as it was the crossroad to our career. We started being together most of the time. There was something about her that instigated me to know her better. I was always spotted with her in college and I became known to people because I was her good friend. I loved spending time with her and knowing her better. We used to talk with each other most of the times. On the other hand  I was  failing in mathematics. As per my tuition records I had scored 12 out of hundred in my exams which scared the hell out of my mom and she was really worried if I could even pass the exams. My maths lecturer in my tuitions had told me that I’ll surely not pass in the board exams but it was time to subvert the paradigm that anyone who scores 12 can’t score thirty five in finals.  For this to happen I had to focus completely on maths and it was truly the most challenging time of my life I thought during that phase. I started coping up with the subject and she and I would be with each other after twelve thirty. I used to stay awake late for her and she used to be awake for me. Thank GOD I finally made 64 out of 100 in my final exams and all the credit goes to these three persons my college teacher -Christopher  sir, mom and my best friend Kiran Chikaparappa.  Everyone at my home was delighted when they got to know my marks but it also marked the end of being with her as my parents thought that she was the reason that I was not doing good with studies  but for me,she was the reason I was studying.

Well it was time to decide about my career and no matter how much my dad forced me I chose a career in which she would be with me. It was third semester and one of my favorite lecturer’s class when “one flash  and I lost my heart to her  forever”. This was the moment I realized that it was love that kept us together no matter what the situations were. “I fell in love with her “. Twenty four hours seemed so less. Love was in the air. I didn’t realize days and nights . There were only two phases of time for me now, one in which she was with me and the one in which she wasn’t.  Sleep, food , nothing interested me other than being with her.

I’m sure you all are very excited to know who she is? She is my sweetheart  my VISION of doing something that I wanted to with her. She is my branch of engineering biotechnology . Let me explain everything now as I’m sure you all are shocked at the previous sentence. Biology was introduced as a separate section from eighth standard! I took PCMB combination in my PUC. Staring at her meant reading her during class hours when the subject was taught. Being with her meant  studying her. I used to study biology after twelve thirty in the night so that my other subjects weren’t disturbed. A lot of you would disagree with me saying, how can you love an idea? Well, Swami Vivekananda loved a VISION!  I feel this was the reason I was born. To be the guardian of this vision.Some of you would say have I gone mad and I’d say yes I believe “if you’re not mad about something you can’t achieve anything apart from the ordinary”. She’s more of an immortal lover to me. She isn’t human which makes her so better. But I never saw her as a subject.  She always is and will always  mean something more than just a subject to me. She’s the very reason the so called “use for nothing Amith “ became someone whom anyone would think once before saying something to me. She made me what I am today . She’s my life turner . She’s the very reason I breath today. She’s few of those who never gave up on me. she is with me even now and will always be mine forever. I can’t imagine life without her. She adds colours to my world . She has been with me in every crest and trough of life. She’s the one who makes me rise again and again no matter how many times I’m knocked down. As every lover is tested and so am i. I wanted to bring this vision into making something for the betterment of the society. But guess what life sometimes is so cruel to you.But, all that life can do is delay my plans. Now not being able to bring this vision into action makes me die a hundred deaths everyday. Every moment my heart weeps and I really want to make this vision happen. Tears have dried up in my eyes and I say I’m alive because I exhibit the basic characteristics of a living organism. Its like every moment someone stabs me with a dagger and I can’t do anything but to resist it with the love that she has for me.  I prefer being alone and darkness seems a very good friend of mine.

But i can’t live without her. I try everyday to gather myself but I successfully fail in it by the end of the day. Here I am standing on the place where there are two roads and the difference I can make out in between these roads is her. Yes I’m gonna get her back into my life and make my vision visible to everyone one day. This is my promise to her that even if GOD wants me to leave her I won’t. I love you so very much sweetheart. There’s nothing in this world that can comfort me the way you do. Even now the way I transcend this situation is by being with her. Why are we punished for a mistake that we haven’t done? Is falling in love with a vision a crime? I vow to bring back my vision amid this world and no matter what no one can stop me from doing this. I dedicate these lines to her “ mujhe kisi se aaj takh isliye pyar nahi hua kyunki mujhe meri jaaanemann ko pyar karne se phursat hi nahi milti”” she taught me everything about life, hope. Her love is like the wind I can’t see it but I can feel it”.NEVER EVER GIVE UP. 

Unleash The Fire In You!

Coming to almost the end of my engineering course has always made me realize so much about not just engineering but also life! We all start with dreams of becoming someone we’ve been seeing as our idol! But ,I always felt life has been very unique to me and am sure it is to each one of you! We’ve come to a stage where we are seeing the other side of life, which I’m sure is cruel to us than the most of our nightmares! It just keeps getting harder and harder. Everytime  you tell yourself that this is it , its all over and then something happens that takes you away from what you had really aimed for! We all fight for that spirit inside us that’s of Divine origin and serene in nature!

The next  time when we try  we make sure we’re completely on track for the thing that we wanted the most which involves the common good of everyone and make this earth a better and less bitter place to live in! we strive hard enough  and still our efforts don’t seem enough. Eventually i ended up in the darkest forest i've come across in journey of my life, where I was quite alone! A place where the only help for me was this spark of the divine soul that kept itself alive through the hurricanes that just kept breaking me apart and deteriorating every bit of me! But its on us to make sure that this incredible power is used for its destined purpose  !Believe me or not we all have or will reach a stage where however strong we are we will be torn apart by varieties of circumstances. This is when I want you to look deep inside yourself and dig out the spark that I’m talking about! This spark is the only thing that can get you out of the most petrifying situations of your life! If you are able to nurture this spark and enhance it turning it into a giant fire then it not only  will shield you from the obstacles that come in your way but also burn them down into ashes in seconds. It’s a phase where in even your heart pumps blood to its maximum capacity. Every nerve fights for you and every drop of blood running through your body is trying its very very best to complement your thoughts .But , if you’re concentration moves away from this spark then you’re at your most vulnerable state! Its my deep concern that made me write this post because most of them whom I’ve seen fail gave up! Most of the times it was lack of interest and also the fear of failing! Let me put forth my own principle that I think can help you” the more you fail the greater is your probability of succeeding and the more you succeed the greater is your probability of failing”. So its a warning note to those of my dear ones who are succeeding and I heartily wish them all a great future ahead! For those who haven’t had their breakthrough its time to subvert the paradigm and make sure you’re answerable to God at the end of your life!

The most worrying factors I’ve noticed are laziness and fear of failing! We all are miracles in ourselves ! Do you think  it was easy for for those innumerable characters that we inherit from our parents to fit into one individual? Do you think it was easy for 200000000 sperms to compete among themselves and only one could succeed out of them? The way I understand it we are small miracles in ourselves who are destined to achieve miracles that have never been achieved before! Fear of failing – this is one thing that really bugs me! People who think that what if I fail after working hard and facing failure are at the height of their stupidities! Don’t you see it failure is the only way you can improve! We all want to be better and better with every passing day and we don’t want to face failure which I think is really insane! The next time you face failure proudly tell it” come on I’ve been waiting for you to improve me”. If all of us can display this commitment to excellence then believe me you can make a difference in your lives and also others on a daily basis! Finally if what I’ve said really affected anyone of you then I’ll be glad that I could be of any help! Don’t wait for help or guidance , be your own guiding light and always try and guide others on their ways because it is very difficult to find a guide and those who have the right one are incredibly lucky! If you don’t have a guide then may be its your turn to be the guide! ALWAYS REMEMBER EACH ONE OF YOU IS DESTINED TO GREATNESS IN YOUR OWN WAY! If you've felt something, right there in your heart then please suggest your friends to read this and share it on your walls. Not for me, but for those lives where these words may make a large difference. Even I’m trying to do the same and I wish you all the very best in your lives! 

My First Ever Surprise Birthday Party- a long awaited dream coming true!

          Well it all started in a melodramatic manner with these "meet me urgently" kind of lines. Soon after the call i rushed towards the place where they had a web waiting for an insect like me! Later she showed me some candles and I paid no attention being a doofus for the moment and TADAAAAAAAA there it was “THE BADMAASH COMPANY” completely loaded with the weirdest ideas of scaring the hell out of me! Time has been equally kind and cruel to me just as it is with all of us(courtesy : kiran v chikaparappa). This moment that these exceptional persons in my life gifted to me will be cherished by me for a lifetime. In this world where people turn against each other for their greed, I’m fortunate to have a bunch of people who I know came together to bring a smile on my face. I always ask my brain if I am lucky and my brain reverts to me with all those that I couldn't have in my life! But surprisingly , my heart tells me the exact opposite making me realize what a life am I gifted with and so is everyone of you who is reading this. Three years in davangere hasn’t been easy for me but hasn’t been tough too because of these friends of mine. I've always dreamed of this and am glad this happened with you guys as the means to it. Thank you for channelizing this pulchritudinous(word for the day: synonym of beautiful) moment into my life .I know that its hardly been a year that I've met all of you, but guys my Endeavour of life has been the one that I can cosset in my life because of you all! I bet none of you knows how incredibly special you are to me! You've gifted me the title of this write up!  Well am glad to have you guys as my friends! Love you all!                                                                                  

THE UNKNOWNS!

I really don’t know how but exploring people at random is something I’ve loved doing the most! Getting to know people because of various circumstances that bring us closer or draw us apart from them.

It may be through anything may be their paintings,  write –ups ,may be their voice. There is a magical gist in this group of people whom I call as “unknowns” that had the power to draw my attention towards them in a way that surely perplexes me . I really wonder how the voice behind a song ,few beats by a musician , few colors in a painting, few braniac tricks, few steps of a dancer, few jokes by a joker and the list goes on…………! I feel there’s no end to it, makes an impact on my mind with such adrenaline intensity!

I hardly know them in sense 100% unknowns seem to make a special place for themselves in  my life.I seem to be occupied with astonishment by the way things have been going so far for me! How someone we aren’t sure of receiving a response from surprises us completely even with a simple sentence! How just a song sung by someone drowns us deep into their voice! How few bold strokes seem to reflect what the person behind these strokes is! how words like colorful free birds fly under the sky of my heart!

I’ve always believed that anything done by a person reflects their mind! I even don’t know what this is! I just am glad to experience this phenomena where these highly gifted minds I call ”the unknowns”  have such a flabbergasting effect on my mind! Some become immensely close while some seem to be major introverts and some on the contrary being major extroverts! Every kind of nature has its own merits and demerits! But studying these unique species called unknowns is something that I’ve been very fascinated about it ! God almighty must be saying “hey fatty, mahn you’re really having a ball with my gifts huh?” really am falling out of words to describe this feeling that’s in my heart!

Dedicated to all those who have impressed me by their work even before I knew their name and details! Its just that anything you do leaves a horcrux(a word understood only by harry potter fans)(for non hp fans “a mark”) of you in your work so better watch what you’re doing! I feel pretty happy to have come across all of you and if destiny wants we shall surely meet one day or the other!