LOVE - REDEFINED!

LOVE – we all are hit by this storm one or the other day. Even I had my share of love that I was gifted from GOD!

She joined my school in eighth standard. She was kind of an introvert from the first day that I noticed her. Although I did notice her but had never imagined that she would become so special  one day. I hardly used to talk to her and hardly paid any attention to her. She was just one among my classmates for me. Slowly and steadily we caught each others eyes staring at us and I used to hate it when any girl stares at me. We eventually became good friends over the period of time.  Finally we stepped into 10^th standard and she was the most easily accessible person to me. School days ended and we both separated and I was all cool with it as if nothing’s going to change. But slowly I did feel her absence. Also, my best friend hated her. He never liked her and told me to be away from her.  

Then came PUC 1^st year and also with it came the pressure to improve as it was the crossroad to our career. We started being together most of the time. There was something about her that instigated me to know her better. I was always spotted with her in college and I became known to people because I was her good friend. I loved spending time with her and knowing her better. We used to talk with each other most of the times. On the other hand  I was  failing in mathematics. As per my tuition records I had scored 12 out of hundred in my exams which scared the hell out of my mom and she was really worried if I could even pass the exams. My maths lecturer in my tuitions had told me that I’ll surely not pass in the board exams but it was time to subvert the paradigm that anyone who scores 12 can’t score thirty five in finals.  For this to happen I had to focus completely on maths and it was truly the most challenging time of my life I thought during that phase. I started coping up with the subject and she and I would be with each other after twelve thirty. I used to stay awake late for her and she used to be awake for me. Thank GOD I finally made 64 out of 100 in my final exams and all the credit goes to these three persons my college teacher -Christopher  sir, mom and my best friend Kiran Chikaparappa.  Everyone at my home was delighted when they got to know my marks but it also marked the end of being with her as my parents thought that she was the reason that I was not doing good with studies  but for me,she was the reason I was studying.

Well it was time to decide about my career and no matter how much my dad forced me I chose a career in which she would be with me. It was third semester and one of my favorite lecturer’s class when “one flash  and I lost my heart to her  forever”. This was the moment I realized that it was love that kept us together no matter what the situations were. “I fell in love with her “. Twenty four hours seemed so less. Love was in the air. I didn’t realize days and nights . There were only two phases of time for me now, one in which she was with me and the one in which she wasn’t.  Sleep, food , nothing interested me other than being with her.

I’m sure you all are very excited to know who she is? She is my sweetheart  my VISION of doing something that I wanted to with her. She is my branch of engineering biotechnology . Let me explain everything now as I’m sure you all are shocked at the previous sentence. Biology was introduced as a separate section from eighth standard! I took PCMB combination in my PUC. Staring at her meant reading her during class hours when the subject was taught. Being with her meant  studying her. I used to study biology after twelve thirty in the night so that my other subjects weren’t disturbed. A lot of you would disagree with me saying, how can you love an idea? Well, Swami Vivekananda loved a VISION!  I feel this was the reason I was born. To be the guardian of this vision.Some of you would say have I gone mad and I’d say yes I believe “if you’re not mad about something you can’t achieve anything apart from the ordinary”. She’s more of an immortal lover to me. She isn’t human which makes her so better. But I never saw her as a subject.  She always is and will always  mean something more than just a subject to me. She’s the very reason the so called “use for nothing Amith “ became someone whom anyone would think once before saying something to me. She made me what I am today . She’s my life turner . She’s the very reason I breath today. She’s few of those who never gave up on me. she is with me even now and will always be mine forever. I can’t imagine life without her. She adds colours to my world . She has been with me in every crest and trough of life. She’s the one who makes me rise again and again no matter how many times I’m knocked down. As every lover is tested and so am i. I wanted to bring this vision into making something for the betterment of the society. But guess what life sometimes is so cruel to you.But, all that life can do is delay my plans. Now not being able to bring this vision into action makes me die a hundred deaths everyday. Every moment my heart weeps and I really want to make this vision happen. Tears have dried up in my eyes and I say I’m alive because I exhibit the basic characteristics of a living organism. Its like every moment someone stabs me with a dagger and I can’t do anything but to resist it with the love that she has for me.  I prefer being alone and darkness seems a very good friend of mine.

But i can’t live without her. I try everyday to gather myself but I successfully fail in it by the end of the day. Here I am standing on the place where there are two roads and the difference I can make out in between these roads is her. Yes I’m gonna get her back into my life and make my vision visible to everyone one day. This is my promise to her that even if GOD wants me to leave her I won’t. I love you so very much sweetheart. There’s nothing in this world that can comfort me the way you do. Even now the way I transcend this situation is by being with her. Why are we punished for a mistake that we haven’t done? Is falling in love with a vision a crime? I vow to bring back my vision amid this world and no matter what no one can stop me from doing this. I dedicate these lines to her “ mujhe kisi se aaj takh isliye pyar nahi hua kyunki mujhe meri jaaanemann ko pyar karne se phursat hi nahi milti”” she taught me everything about life, hope. Her love is like the wind I can’t see it but I can feel it”.NEVER EVER GIVE UP.