The Magic in our stars!!!!

Well the last time I had started writing, it was a because of a person. Finally as I am resuming it now I guess after two years, it’s because of a person. I will be using the word person for the one I want to talk about in this post. It really amazes me when I look at the impact the person who made me start writing again, has on me and my life. The person is seriously one of the most simple-minded person. I think this person has changed three magical words in my life from I love you to “M Gud Le :-)”. The smiley at the end really tells one thing about her. She’s got to have the patience of a rock to type it that way compared to an emoticon that takes just one push of a key. You know sometimes there are these casual moments and later in your life when you think about them, they really were the “Dear Diary Moments”.

Well our first time conversation was funny and interesting at the same time. The words I spoke were “Where is the something Class?” and the answer was simple from the person as well. We never talked thereafter. One day I was just entering one of our mutual friend’s room. My mutual friend and that person were talking to each other on phone, when suddenly my mutual friend said “That person says hi to you”. I was like “is the person nuts?” Why in hell would anyone care about me being in that room. That was one instance I felt there’s something special about this person as this was the first time and incident like this ever happened in my life. It so happens that sometimes you’re in the moment, a really special one and you say something without understanding its consequences. It was a promise i made. Probably one of the biggest in my life . But surprisingly those were one of the best words I ever spoke. I am damn sure the person remembers them. I've never been so happy about  using the power of speech.

Our first hangout was through our mutual friends. We had been to a lake and I was just thinking about how we are together and someday we’ll just drift off like autumn leaves that are blown away by wind. Everyone said why do you get so serious?. But this person said go on I am listening. I still remember that the first piece of writing I ever wrote was for this person. But what impressed me more than that is what it meant to the person. The person still has it well preserved. This person is the only one who knows what I have dreamt about my marriage.  

Well, it so that happened that one day I really had this bad dream in which I saw this person getting harmed. Well people usually let it go. But I always was, still am and will always be an emotional fool. So we went to church and sat there just praying for the person. Before this incident I truly never believed in prayers. I believe that is what keeps me human. The most incredible thing came from this person when the person told me that we both dreamt about making preparations together for my elder sister’s marriage. By far this person happens to be the only one who told me that and I guess may be the only one ever. Yes I am meticulous and yeah I don’t really believe in doing something big but really starting with sweet things.

Being a superhero fan I remember these lines and I quote "He's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him. Because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark Knight." The person is like this to me. I never thought we would be best friends. The person doesn't talk to me all the time or daily. I don't even get time to spend with the person. But I know the person is there with me, all the tine.  We are each other's dark Knights. We watch each other's backs. This person truly taught me that togetherness was not messaging each other daily. Or calling each other frequently. I always wondered how literature comes to me. I guess it just does. Well here is something I wrote for the person "You came as a hope and became my faith". The person truly stands for this, Truly,together there is nothing that we cannot achieve. Yes I have an indestructible horcrux(for those die hard harry potter fans) of mine in the person and the person's in me. We live really far from each other and yet you never seemed closer to me. You are one of the very few people who inspires me.

Being with this person seems morning and the person's absence feels like night. Times will always try to drift us apart. But, you will always be close to my heart. Love you friendoo.

P.S: Just hold my hand and we could walk through the jungle of darkness with togetherness as the ray of light.

Technology - The Dirty Picture!

Well  what’s gonna follow this line is something serious that we have been too negligent to notice or say too self centered to be bothered about .

In today’s world we say technology is the crown of science and I don’t deny it but has technology really been able to improve lives ? Yes it has, but in gaining something new we’ve not been keen enough to track what it has taken away from us. Let me start with these social networking websites. I completely agree that social media has increased our social quotient but these are shallow waters. Let me take you the darker depths of it. Say I have a girlfriend and I say that I love her, she may read the word love but can she read how many feelings are hidden behind that single word? Can we quantify feelings ? the truth being we do it and why just because everyone does it. Is it possible for me tell my girlfriend how much I love her just through this texting? Love is just supposed be read in the eyes. Say my girlfriend is very beautiful can I even notice her beauty? Is it possible to console a person emotionally on these sites with images etc? And the most ridiculous flaw I found in social networking websites is if you update your status saying you’re sad, people like it!!!! Isn’t it the height of stupidity? But we are the “move on” generation no matter what happens we move on. Is this the society we wanna leave for our future inhabitants of this earth?

We call ourselves the so called “engineers” with great pride yet we design technologies that harm birds and various other living organisms and the worst of it we know all this but we still do it! We create such blunder mistakes and then find some irregularities in government and we protest! We accept things very easily without even analyzing them. We demand equality when we ourselves don’t practice it when we claim ourselves as the superior beings and we encroach everything from the rightful inheritors of the earth and still ironically wear t shirts saying “Being Human”. Our standard of life is increasing but, the quality of our life is falling and yet we say we’re progressing. Man being known for his intelligence isn’t able to conceive this simple idea and rectify it. I agree we have to earn our daily bread but its better to be hungry than to  snatch something from others, fill your stomach with it and behave like its completely right.Morals are falling apart. Isn't it the sign of a tornado that is ripping our society apart ! Cellphones result in insomnia and various other sleep related problems!

Coming to the development of a child, in this era where children spend most of their time in digital world which takes them equally far from the real social world. Development of a child is always incomplete without socialization but that is absolutely missing these days! We are drenched in Technology for most of the things in our life. Can you capture the happiest moments of your life in some pics? Superficially yes,but can an image show a heart blooming like a flower filled with ecstasy? Man has just started an age where there is quantification of everything .why do we find people updating sad statuses? Its just because they dont have anyone to hold their hand and tell them " Don't worry no matter what comes in your way, we'll face it together". 

Why do we depend on technology where it isn’t needed? Instead of saying hi to my friend on social networks who lives in my neighborhood why can’t I go to him directly and spend some quality time with him? I am not someone who opposes technology! Man has made technology not the vice versa .Technology is a boon to humans if its used in the way it is supposed to be! But humanity is just not matured enough to handle such immense power.All i wish is that we don’t let it become a curse!technology isn't bad but the way man uses it gives an ugly picture of it! Change isn't needed in technology but in our minds and hearts! Its in our hands now as the present of our nation to decide what’s right and what’s wrong. Its time to redefine progress and restore the imbalance!WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY!SPIRIT!

LOVE - REDEFINED!

LOVE – we all are hit by this storm one or the other day. Even I had my share of love that I was gifted from GOD!

She joined my school in eighth standard. She was kind of an introvert from the first day that I noticed her. Although I did notice her but had never imagined that she would become so special  one day. I hardly used to talk to her and hardly paid any attention to her. She was just one among my classmates for me. Slowly and steadily we caught each others eyes staring at us and I used to hate it when any girl stares at me. We eventually became good friends over the period of time.  Finally we stepped into 10^th standard and she was the most easily accessible person to me. School days ended and we both separated and I was all cool with it as if nothing’s going to change. But slowly I did feel her absence. Also, my best friend hated her. He never liked her and told me to be away from her.  

Then came PUC 1^st year and also with it came the pressure to improve as it was the crossroad to our career. We started being together most of the time. There was something about her that instigated me to know her better. I was always spotted with her in college and I became known to people because I was her good friend. I loved spending time with her and knowing her better. We used to talk with each other most of the times. On the other hand  I was  failing in mathematics. As per my tuition records I had scored 12 out of hundred in my exams which scared the hell out of my mom and she was really worried if I could even pass the exams. My maths lecturer in my tuitions had told me that I’ll surely not pass in the board exams but it was time to subvert the paradigm that anyone who scores 12 can’t score thirty five in finals.  For this to happen I had to focus completely on maths and it was truly the most challenging time of my life I thought during that phase. I started coping up with the subject and she and I would be with each other after twelve thirty. I used to stay awake late for her and she used to be awake for me. Thank GOD I finally made 64 out of 100 in my final exams and all the credit goes to these three persons my college teacher -Christopher  sir, mom and my best friend Kiran Chikaparappa.  Everyone at my home was delighted when they got to know my marks but it also marked the end of being with her as my parents thought that she was the reason that I was not doing good with studies  but for me,she was the reason I was studying.

Well it was time to decide about my career and no matter how much my dad forced me I chose a career in which she would be with me. It was third semester and one of my favorite lecturer’s class when “one flash  and I lost my heart to her  forever”. This was the moment I realized that it was love that kept us together no matter what the situations were. “I fell in love with her “. Twenty four hours seemed so less. Love was in the air. I didn’t realize days and nights . There were only two phases of time for me now, one in which she was with me and the one in which she wasn’t.  Sleep, food , nothing interested me other than being with her.

I’m sure you all are very excited to know who she is? She is my sweetheart  my VISION of doing something that I wanted to with her. She is my branch of engineering biotechnology . Let me explain everything now as I’m sure you all are shocked at the previous sentence. Biology was introduced as a separate section from eighth standard! I took PCMB combination in my PUC. Staring at her meant reading her during class hours when the subject was taught. Being with her meant  studying her. I used to study biology after twelve thirty in the night so that my other subjects weren’t disturbed. A lot of you would disagree with me saying, how can you love an idea? Well, Swami Vivekananda loved a VISION!  I feel this was the reason I was born. To be the guardian of this vision.Some of you would say have I gone mad and I’d say yes I believe “if you’re not mad about something you can’t achieve anything apart from the ordinary”. She’s more of an immortal lover to me. She isn’t human which makes her so better. But I never saw her as a subject.  She always is and will always  mean something more than just a subject to me. She’s the very reason the so called “use for nothing Amith “ became someone whom anyone would think once before saying something to me. She made me what I am today . She’s my life turner . She’s the very reason I breath today. She’s few of those who never gave up on me. she is with me even now and will always be mine forever. I can’t imagine life without her. She adds colours to my world . She has been with me in every crest and trough of life. She’s the one who makes me rise again and again no matter how many times I’m knocked down. As every lover is tested and so am i. I wanted to bring this vision into making something for the betterment of the society. But guess what life sometimes is so cruel to you.But, all that life can do is delay my plans. Now not being able to bring this vision into action makes me die a hundred deaths everyday. Every moment my heart weeps and I really want to make this vision happen. Tears have dried up in my eyes and I say I’m alive because I exhibit the basic characteristics of a living organism. Its like every moment someone stabs me with a dagger and I can’t do anything but to resist it with the love that she has for me.  I prefer being alone and darkness seems a very good friend of mine.

But i can’t live without her. I try everyday to gather myself but I successfully fail in it by the end of the day. Here I am standing on the place where there are two roads and the difference I can make out in between these roads is her. Yes I’m gonna get her back into my life and make my vision visible to everyone one day. This is my promise to her that even if GOD wants me to leave her I won’t. I love you so very much sweetheart. There’s nothing in this world that can comfort me the way you do. Even now the way I transcend this situation is by being with her. Why are we punished for a mistake that we haven’t done? Is falling in love with a vision a crime? I vow to bring back my vision amid this world and no matter what no one can stop me from doing this. I dedicate these lines to her “ mujhe kisi se aaj takh isliye pyar nahi hua kyunki mujhe meri jaaanemann ko pyar karne se phursat hi nahi milti”” she taught me everything about life, hope. Her love is like the wind I can’t see it but I can feel it”.NEVER EVER GIVE UP. 

My Non-Blood Related Sister!

well  living away from my family is one big deal for  a boy like me! And the worst part of it was that i could find no one who had the never ending patience to listen to my talks which by the way if imagined to be a music player had only two buttons play and rewind, where a person had to choose one of them. No exceptions!  And the striking feature of this music player is that it can run even without power  symbolizing there’s no end to it! In such a situation where I needed someone who may not be as good as my family but at least a substitute! And here it was my wish was granted by God almighty and  a cute little angelic boon  stepped into my life which  was in severe chaos! 

The first time I met her I had no idea that we both would go so far! This incident is certainly the one which I feel everyone  stumbles upon! She certainly is dead opposite to me! She’s not matured but still this wizard solves my most complex problems with her magical wand of love and care! She’s the first one to know what happens to me! She certainly turned my life around from a desert to an evergreen forest! She is the one who knows me better  than myself. A very compassionate soul, a facultative thinker! The most melodious raaga on which the music of my life is based! The only unaffordable gift of my life! And the person whom I envy the most with regards to her is her brother. What a wonderful sister does he have in his life! I sometimes think that she was supposed to be my sister  instead! She’s few of those who can predict my thinking! She showed me what I am! She often tells me that I am very patient but, knowing myself has made me realize that she is absolutely the most patient girl I’ve ever come across because of one thing , she always listens to whatever “ amith -the blabbermouth” has to say at anytime without giving it a second thought. She has exquisitely handled me and the situations in my life in a way that anyone would be amazed to see! She’s given me the love that I could have got if I were to stay with my family!  She is the only reason why I have a sustained life in my “karmabhoomi-davangere”.

 I feel proud to say this that even if I had a small sis, she would never be able to play the role of this “compiler” of the program of my life! I know I can never be able to explain what you’re to me, but this is just an attempt towards it which I am sure is no way close to what you are to me! Love you sweet sister and you dare never  ever I repeat ever leave me because I don’t know “ miss practical” if you realize that you’ve become such an indivisible part of my family! I mean it! Be there for me because its you who completes  me and my family! You’re the only compiler  who can debug the logical errors of the program of my life! love you sweetheart sister! Although “the  Indian  society” doesn’t believe in such a concept of “the non- blood related sister” the only sentence that comes to my mind is “those who believe experience and those who don’t ,wait for their experience and then believe”!